There are some people in this world that will suck the life out of you if you let them. Like vampires they feed incessantly, ignoring your gasping, gurgling struggles- oblivious to everything except their need to control, posses, and destroy - you.
Sometimes, I think that perhaps they just don't know any better, they were never taught as children how to respect other people, to perhaps for once, put someone elses needs above their own.
But you know better don't you? You're shocked by that first bite, the slight sting of pain that occurs when they've sunk their fangs into you. Now what? Do you step back and say, "No! Get the f* off me!"or, do you just let them continue because when you're in that moment it may feel good? You feel needed, wanted, loved and maybe even some perverse form of pleasure and you let it continue. Hmmm. Comfortably Numb. The danger is that you will lose yourself, you'll lose sight of who you are and what you want. It's the epitome of codependency. A vicious, nasty cycle of insecurity, needing to be needed, bad habits and manipulation.
Is it hopeless then? Not at all. Pick an emotion that will help center you again. Personally for me, it's anger. When I'm pissed, I really am one cold hearted bitch with ice in my veins. I feel nothing except the anger. Not the best thing I know, but its my emotion and it suits me for that purpose.
One of the best feelings in the world is when you unhook those fangs, smile a decidedly evil smile, laugh like you're possessed and wave bye bye. Bye bye.
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